Saturday, March 1, 2008
A weak fishy post.
So I have to say that it does not suck any less seeing this dumb girl. I ran into her tonight and it still sucks. But you consider the amount of time we spent together it should not matter however it does.
I was supposed to spend the day studying and I spent zero time studying. However I did go to the gym for a few hours and I started tanning again. I know that you could careless about all of this but I really don’t have anything to say today.
The parents left last night and I am happy to be free again, however I do miss them. I wish that I was skiing right now and not stuck in Maryland.
Ite I am out for now.
Quote of the day:
You know when they have a fishing show on TV? They catch the fish and then let it go. They don't want to eat the fish, they just want to make it late for something.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
I almost forgot about my new love...
Now go and watch and enjoy. Oh and BTW I am changing my status to “its complicated” because I have decided I am in love with Amy Winehouse. Now you might be thinking “isn’t she a crackhead?” To which I respond “yes isn’t it sexy???”
I never thought a crack addict would be so hot…
A Porshe a Porshe my wife for a Porshe
However, tonight I realized something and I would like some feedback on this. I went out a few times with this girl and admittedly I really liked her. Ok, let me back up, I liked what I though I knew about her. She seemed genuine, honest and caring. Yes she was attractive, however it was her ambition and her spirit that I was drawn to.
With that said we went out and I though had a good time. Not a great time mind you just a good time. So on date number three we are having a random discussion that leads to the place where I live. In the natural course of the conversation she asks me “I thought you owned the house the you live in?” To which I respond “no, John owns it.” Now for the rest of the night she seems a little cold to me. Nothing that I really noticed at the time but later I though maybe I had said something wrong.
Fast-forward to 2 days later. I get tickets to the theatre and call and ask her if she would like to go, mind you I left a voicemail message. To which I receive zero response. Fast forward to the present day. Other than conversations that I have instigated she has not even said hello to me. In fact she has been rather cold to me. I honestly don’t know what it is about me that draws me to this situation.
I had made every effort to date girls that will not focus on money. I have moved out of my house I drive a car that for all purposes sucks and I don’t act like I have money. And yet I still seem to find the girls that are only focused on one thing MONEY!!!!
I really think that is the reason why every time I go to buy a Porsche, Heavenly Father tells me no! Because it would only cause me to further attract the wrong kind of girls. As I write this I am physically sick. It really feels like true confession time. I am starting to think that the only way I am ever going to have a girl that is Mormon love me is for my money. But I hate the idea of letting them know that they are buying a winning lottery ticket.
After dating she who will not be named I swore that I would never ever again date someone who liked me based on money. And yet I still seem to find girls that cannot actually like me for me. I just don’t get it…
This whole issue makes me really feel sad, and furthermore, it makes me want to stop dating in the church all together. I am really tired of thinking that I have found someone who is not focused on financial things and is actually looking for love. But alas every time I think that I have found that what I find is someone who has found out where I come from. This sucks it sucks, sucks, sucks, sucks….
Ok in other news the parental unit is in town this week and I have decided that it might be time to make the big move. Which might be another reason why I have not felt good about buying the Porsche. Who knows what the “big guy” has planned for me. All I can do is have faith that whom ever he sets in my path will be a better choice for me than the ones that I have (thus far) made for myself. In the meantime all I can say is PSK all day everyday till the day I die.
Quotes of the day:
I heard they are trying to invent a Viagra for women. I thought we already had that, it is called CASH.
They say a good woman will make you a better man, problem is good women aren't my type.
Friday, November 16, 2007
To be in love :)
Sorry for being gone for so long it is times like these that I would like to quote Dwight Schrute’s blog with the following:
“September 27, 08:50 PM
Time Encapsulated
Hello internetizens. I have returned from my web logging hiatus. You may be asking yourself, “what happened to Dwight all summer?” Shut up. It’s none of your business. Just focus on the present. In this case, the present has two meanings. In its first usage, it is temporal. The present is the here and now. It is also being used to mean “a gift.” This web log is a present from me to you, the reader, because you do not pay for it and I am giving it to you. Enjoy your present (both meanings).”
To make things long and short I have been super busy with school. I am taking 7 classes this semester and it may just very well be killing me. Here is an average week for me.
American Hist Requires 1000 words per week Plus 2 final projects that are 5000 words each.
Immunology has one project that is 5000 words and weekly reading.
Hist 319x 1 paper plus weekly postings on internet chat sight.
Hist 319Y – Ditto as 319x
CMST303 – Weekly project and internet posting.
Libsci – weekly project and internet posting.
Writing – weekly paper due that is 1000 words plus one final project that is 10,000 words.
As you can see I am writing almost everyday. Once in a while I can get away with doing two projects in one day. That allows me some free time to relax --- ha ha ha.
Okay to the big stuff in my life. I got the priesthood. Yes I know many of you imagine that it would never happen. I can’t say that I am not a little shocked myself. But it has been an amazing experience and I would not change a thing. With it comes a greater responsibility. But also comes a greater sense of responsibility.
The second big thing that has happened is that I am totally fallen in love. I cannot get this girl out of my head. I won’t go into any great details for now suffice it to say that I am totally smitten. Ok so here is the bad part--- she has no idea how I feel and we have not been out on a date. To be honest we only occasionally talk. But I am looking to put a screeching halt to that and get love in the plan.
I know this is short but I am at work and don’t have much time to play today. But I know that I have put this off for so long that I can no longer wait. Till next time…
Quotes of the Day: Wearing a turtle neck and a backpack is like a weak midget trying to bring you down.
Quotes of the Day: When we were on acid we would go into the woods. Cuz when your in the woods there is less chance to run into an authority figure. But we ran into a bear that was even more of a buz kill. My friend Dwayne was standing there raising his right hand swearing to prevent forest fires.
Quotes of the Day: Hearing nuns' confessions is like being stoned to death with popcorn.
Monday, October 8, 2007
Is doing drugs wrong?
I have a problem with the current governmental system. The problem is that for the most part it tries to control us. The problem all began with me in high school with anti drug legislation. Was I for or against it???
Well for the most I felt that it did provide a valuable ingredient to the safety of society. Therefore I was in fact for it. However, taken to the extreme we now have seat belt laws. These laws for the most part benefit and improve the safety of society. But then you have laws that allow peoples privacy to be invaded by the scanners at air ports.
These nifty little devices allow the unbelievably fat woman who looks like a squid in stretch pants to look thru all the crap that I am trying to smuggle back into the country or into
My point is that although some of these things seem to be for our benefit at what point do we no longer maintain freedom. Look at
Here is my point if you call yourself a “terrorist” then your motive is to terrorize people. We in this country have been terrorized so much we just roll over and allow people to search anything they want – or listen into phone calls, or violate our civil rights anyway that an authority sees fit all in the name of safety. However, I think the most brilliant part is that Osama Bin Laden got the US Congress to institute laws that terrorize our civil rights far more than he ever could.
There is a point where you have to assume that living in a free society comes with certain inherent dangers and responsibilities. If you refuse to accept those dangers and responsibilities then you need to go live somewhere that people have no danger freedom or responsibility. It is called Kindergarten. If you actually agree that the patriot act is in the benefit of society then you should drag you midget ass back in kindergarten and curl up for story time and allow the rest of us to go on our merry fuckin way. Please why cant you just suck in peace…
Quote of the Day:
Lead follow or get out of the way.
When my mother was pregnant with me, they did an ultrasound and found she was having twins, and they did another ultrasound a few weeks later, they discovered that I had resorbed the other fetus. Do I regret this? No. I believe his tissues made me stronger. I now have the strength of a grown man and a little baby.
AIDS is not funny. Believe me, I have tried. There are certain topics that are off-limits to comedians. JFK. AIDS. The Holocaust. The
Thursday, September 20, 2007
Only Harry Potter fans need apply.
In 1979, Aaren Lashone Simpson (born September 24, 1977) drowned in the family's swimming pool a month before her second birthday. That same year Simpson and first wife Marguerite were divorced. This is potentially where the first Horcrux was made. Although in 1960, he joined the Persian Warriors, a
Simpson also won the Walter Camp Award in 1967 and was a two-time All-American. He also ran in the USC sprint relay quartet that broke the world record at the NCAA track championships in
It is easy to assume that one of the items now contains a Horcrux in it. Otherwise why would this individual invest so much time into going to get something only worth $100,000. Remember that Oj gets 25,000 a month in pension monies from the NFL. In the
I think it is time that we get to the bottom of this before he who must not be names kills again. He must be stopped. Sooner or later he will take over the entire world of he is not brought down. The only way to do this is to find all of the Horcrux’s and destroy them!!!
Quotes of the Day:
I'm gonna keep the coke and the fries but I'm gonna send this burger back. And if you put any mayonnaise on it, I'm gonna come over to your house, I'll chop your legs off, set fire to your house, and watch as you drag your bloody stumps out the door.
Horcrux - The receptacle in which a Dark wizard has hidden a fragment of his soul for the purposes of attaining immortality.
Listen to me. You have to consider the possibility that God doesn't like you, he never wanted you. In all probability, He hates you. This is not the worst thing that can happen...
It isn't... ?
We don't need him...
We don't... ?
Fuck damnation. Fuck redemption. We are God's unwanted children, with no special place and no special attention, and so be it.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Book seven done... Now what?
As the discussion continued I told her that not only is that what happens with me, but they also say to me “please do not express your needs, they will only cause me to lose interest.”
This weekend.
Saturday I had been able to get an extension from a professor for an assignment that was now to be due at midnight on Saturday. At 3:00 p.m. that Saturday Sarah (last name not important) called me to see if I would give her a ride to a party taking place that evening that began at 5:30.
I agreed that I would pick her up from the metro (subway) station closest to my house and we would go from there. I told her I would like to be there around six and that I had to make a detour on the way.
At 5:00pm I called Sarah to see if she was getting at all close to my house. She had not even left her house yet. It was no less than a 1 hour metro trip from her house to mine and this meant that we would not be picking her up until 6:00. Now here is what I had planned for the schedule that night.
The plan in my head was as follows. 5-5;30 pick up sarah drop off ipod.
5:30 - 6:00 go to party number 1.
6:00 - 7:15 party #1
7:30- 8:00 party #2
9:00 leave party #2
9:30 - 9:45 start working on assignment.
12:00 publish assignment
12:01 read Harry potter.
Here is what actually happened.
5:00 call sarah still has not left.
6:00 Where the fuck is she???
6:30 thinking about leaving her.
7:00 I am walking out the door when I find that I cant find my Ipod.
7:15 still cant find Ipod.
7:18 sarah calls she is almost to my house.
7:30 pick her up - found the ipod.
7:45 drop off ipod. At party #2
8:00 get to party #1
9:00 leave party #1
10:00 get food (finally)
10:05 sarah asks how she is getting home
10:06 I tell her about assignment.
10:08 she tells me she needs ride home
10:15 she tells me again.
10:20 gossips to Ashley about her ride home.
10:25 takes me inside the house at party #2 to talk about her ride home.
10:30 leave party #2
10:31 ask her to read to me while I drive the 65 mile round trip to her house.
11:00 she complains about reading.
12:00 get her home.
8:30 get call from professor who is not happy that I did not get assignment to him like I promised.
8:31 feel like a fool.
8:32 forgive - life will go on.
Now all of this would be kinda funny accept for the fact that on the way to drop off my IPOD I ask her where my portable hard drive is and if she knows about it. She tells me that Teresa is just taking a long time to get the pics off of it.
So today I email Teresa about my portable hard drive and come to find out it is no longer in her charge. In fact Sarah’s friend who just moved out here left the god dam thing U fucking TAH. Sarah knew that her friend was going to be bringing it out here and never said anything to me about it. So when I asked her on Saturday she knew that Becca had lost it and lied to me.
Right now I am trying to convince myself that I should not make a big deal about the whole thing and to just let it go. The problem is that Sarah lied to me.
So now to go back to the start of the whole discussion today. Why don’t I date Mormon girls??? This is why --- It is impossible to tell a mormon girl without being sucked into a trap of manipulation. One thing that I have noticed is that non-Mormons understand how hard it is to find people to trust and people who they can love and love them back. It is so rare and when it happens it is cherished and treated with the respect and honor that it deserves. --- Not always but when you have someone who loves you and you love them then it is respected.
On the other hand mormons believe that it is a right that people love them. That no matter how retarded they act I have to love them. I have no agency in the matter. That no matter what mistakes they make I am still going to have to love that person. The truth is that when you act like a jackass I am going to treat you like a jackass. And you can still love a jackass. I had one when I was a child named stubby I loved that thing. When I was three years old it kicked me right square in the chest but I still loved it.
And that is in a nutshell why I don’t date mormon girls. You cant trust them to honor and respect the fact that you have opened up your heart to them.
Now for those of you who are reading this and thinking that I just got my heart broken --DON’T.
I am not sitting hear crying over my keyboard. However, I am thinking about why again is was that I ever stopped drinking. But suffice it to say that most Mormon girls cannot be trusted. They live the motto that everyone has to love them they are a daughter of god. And because you love them --- Here are my needs please meet them…
On a separate note tonight is a hard night for me. Have any of you seen the new Jack Daniels advertising. Jack Daniels served in fine establishments and questionable joints… Oh that is brilliance. The thing that sucks about all of this is that I am about to receive the priesthood. And my life is falling apart right before my eyes.
For the last two years everything that I have spent my life achieving and earning has been taken from me. At the onset of this summer I decided that I could no longer accept this lifestyle and began acting in my old ways. Almost over night I got a new job, found a way back to school, got a big fat investment payout. It was like the second I decided to stop practicing being a Mormon I won the lottery.
A few weeks ago I stopped making those mistakes and began to prepare to get the priesthood. And in that time I have gained almost ten pounds, my car sucks, and every girl around me is lying to me. Not to mention the fact that since coming back to church I have lost my happiness. I was so happy over the summer, and now it seems as though my life is totally in a spin cycle. I know that life is supposed to get hard when you are about to make good decisions. But the fact is that my life is happiest when I am making bad decisions. Not to mention the fact that people seem to like me more.
How exactly is it that when I make wrong decisions I start losing weight, but when I am doing everything I can to be good I am a big fat pig. Right now I think I am the fattest that I have ever been. I am at least 10 pounds fatter than I was a 2 weeks ago.
I just don’t see why it is that I keep coming back to this faith?? I mean honestly I never feel comfortable at church. I have always felt like an outcast. I have always been an outsider to the folds of the faith. Why is it that I am so at home within the walls of the places that are supposed to be so wrong for me???
I cant understand why it is that if I am working so hard to be good why it is that I feel so bad. And when I am acting bad I feel so happy.
Maybe it is just time to cut the ropes of this faith and let it float up into the sky. I am of the opinion that I will probably never be able to find someone to marry within the folds of this faith. I cant see how I would ever meet someone when I am so opposed to dating them. But needless to say I don’t really like what I have become. I don’t have a house I have only one car. I don’t have a degree and I don’t have a career. When I was 19 I had a house a few cars and a good job.
Maybe it is a test but if it is a test I can say that I am just about to break…
You know that greatest tragedy of all is that I wanted to spend the time during this blog to encourage you all to read Harry potter. I just finished the seventh book and I want to say that I liked the way that it ended. I never expected harry to be a horcrux. That is amazing writing. I love when the answer is right there in front of you the whole time and you never see it. Rowling is masterful in the way she blazes the answer right there on his forehead and yet you never see it coming. That women in my opinion has earned every dollar she has made off the potter series. Harry Potter is truly the definition of what good writing is. I hate beyond all measure plot manipulation. And yet I also need to be surprised - I never saw that one coming!
Quotes of the day:
#1 For somehow this is tyranny's disease, to trust no friends. -- Aeschylus
#2 The people I distrust most are those who want to improve our lives but have only one course of action.
- Frank Herbert
#3 I trust those who watch porn, it is those that don’t who worry me…